- Twice in 3 weeks -

When the SAME thing happens too many times, it becomes an irritation.

I dun wana make myself appearing too naggy too.

U force me to say this, "U dun need to tell me anything anymore, cox I'm not interested to know either."

I just wonder what would U think and feel if I do it to U? Perhaps U dun know. But I can help U to have a taste of the flavour.

- Pray hard for the best! -

We have made our choice to be posted in April.
I dunno if I've chosen the correct 1, cox whatever I choose, I always feel I'm unlucky.
I have doubt in myself and wonder what my future would be.
The uncertainty keeps floating on my mind.

All I can do is to pray hard for good luck.
I believe no1 will always be lucky, but just pray tt I wont be too unlucky till the devastating extent.
I need security. =(

April would be the start of my real working life.
And I really need to work either smart or hard (in case I'm not smart. no choice. hahaha) to out-perform.
But most importantly, it's the attitude.
I do notice that humble individual is the 1 who always lastly wins.
Jia you jia you!

May Gods Bless Me! =)

- Sorry no cure -

It's always easy to say sorry.

But the sorry doesnt mean anything when U've already said sth very hurtful.

Plus, come to think about it, who is not being respectful.

Letting her to decide, pampering her and saying sorry 1st dont necessarily mean U respect her very much.

In fact, my definition of respecting comes in small lil things which matter even more to me.

It happened not only 1 time, but many many times.

"Sry, I forgot to tell U. It was too rushing." Am I so not worth informing? Why U will only rmb me when I msg U for your whereabout? Don't tell me U dun even have a single minute to tell me U are going a place at a time with who and etc. If it really slips through your mind so easily, so when U say U miss me, it is untrue? Everytime when I'm out with my friends, I'll make an effort to at least msg U once to tell about where I'm heading or doing, which I have definitely already told U earlier. Why I can and U cannot?? Where is the respect tt U mean?

Or U'll tell me tt U are going to this event jz right 1-2 hours before the event. And often it clashes with some other outings which I thought both of us are going. Why can't U tell me tt U may be going to this event on this date, even if U are unsure, instead of giving no response and letting me assume that we are going out. And the msg normally sounded like this, "I'm going farewell (or somewhere) later." Don't U wanna elaborate more? Why mz U wait till I ask? or wanna avoid telling me who U are going with and for what it is about? This is nth to do with whether I trust U or not, its about the inform part tt matters to a girl's heart. Unless U think I don't deserve to know. Where is your so-called respect? huh!

And last Friday. U said U are having dinner with family 1st, and I said ok, I can wait for U. But later your msg came again and said U guys r going out at 8.30, and by the time U reach back will be ard 9sth. I find it quite late and I told U to go ahead with ur dinner but I dun guarantee a "yes" later about our outing when U come bc. It was raining and I'm fine to go out tt day tho it was raining, but I wouldnt wanna go out later than a certain time, which U are very clear about it. I hate it when U always try to convince me that I gotta go out cox weekends are the only time for us, which directly made me felt guilty about it. Tts a very inconsiderate statement to say.

I know U wanna hang out, and I DO put PRIORITY for U, but sometimes your timing is really off. Can't U understand the situation at times, and not keep bugging me when U know I'm already annoyed?

WHERE IS THE RESPECT THAT U'VE BEEN MENTIONING??

Anyway, thank you for your patience and tolerance for the times tt I did not respect U.

Forget about it!!!

All I wanna say is 1 bad thing beats everything single good thing!

U can always choose to be angry.
If U dun feel respected, the relationship comes meaningless.

Goodnight.

- HAPPY CNY -

CNY has come and gone.
So fast.
It is still my favourite festival.
But, as the age grows elder, the mood relatively becomes lesser.

U may not trust this.
When U think CNY is the time for big meals, it turned out to be fastfood days for many families.
At least tt I know of, my relatives and my family. lol.
Because, every1 is busy visiting and has no time to cook.
No matter what it is, I enjoyed every single second.

Happy Dragon Year!~

- Will U wanna? -

Will U wanna change to be another 1?
Some1 prettier? Some1 smarter?
Some1 more adventurous? Some1 more outspoken?
To be richer? To be more flirtatious?
To be more polite? To be luckier?

I do have several wanna-BEs.

I wanna be animal lover.
I have nvr hugged an animal, because I can't.
Inborn phobia. Pls, do not force me too as I may not like it.
But I do envy those who can live so well with animal.

I wanna know to swim.
The feeling of floating on the sea where no fear within me is so cool.
Tho I can learn now, it's still harder for an already grown-up to start from basic.

I wanna sing without my fake tone.
I've always sang in it since I know singing.
Tho ppl say it sounds nice, I still find it not comfortable and not confident.
But, I can't get my real voice out, when I sing.

I wanna be more selamba.
I dun wish to be SO well-planned sometimes.
But, the inner "me" tells tt security is more important.

I wanna be younger.
Now that I've grown up, I realised being a kid is so fortunate.
I miss doing homework, and going tuition.
Working isn't bad, at least I could earn my own money.
I have had my time utilised doing sth useful.
But I feel time not enough for the current commitments I have.

But, I know no1 is perfect.
If God has made every1 so perfect, none would appreciate for the non presence.
Despite above, I'm already very happy with myself, with what I own, with whom I have, with what's happening.
In fact, I couldnt ask for more.

But, human is greedy.
Can I demand for 1 more thing?

I wanna be luckier.
I do not want any sad incident ard me.
I do not want any accidents.
I do not wanna "say sry" and do not wanna "hear sry".

May 2012 a better blessing for me,
my family,
my bf and
my friends.

I dont wanna be, but I will be optimistic about life!

=)

- Happy 2012!! -

Whether or not, you had an amazing 2011, it is over.

Now, look forward to live a better year,
with the aim to fulfill more meaningful events.

I've got a list of resolutions this year.
1) Be fit and healthy.
a) Fastfood less than 15 times a year
- refers to McD, KFC, Pizzahut, Dominos and etc *to my discretion* haha.
b) Exercise at least once in 2 weeks
c) Drink less cold drinks. resort to sky juice.
2) Be commited to my work.
3) Work hard play hard.
4) Start on CFA, at least research about it.
5) Be less emotional.
6) Spend more time at home.
7) Do more charity such as donation etc.
8) Do investment. earn money on money. =)

I pray hard for luck in everything I pursue.
I pray hard for great returns this year.
I pray hard for a smooth year.
May Gods bless me!
=)